Happy Birthday man!! Wish I could be there to say it in person, but with some luck and God's blessing, maybe I'll make it for your 40th.
I really am sorry for the way I treated you in the past, especially over the past year. I've never felt worse than when I refused to see you last Christmas and then I found that instead of coming there to bitch me out and tell me what a screw up I am, (which I completely would have deserved), you came out of love and even with much needed gifts and probably a smile. I'm so very, very sorry I acted in the hateful and immature way that I did. I didn't want to see you because I couldn't stand to go through another lecture about how bad I had screwed up. Please accept my apologies and thank you for so much for the contacts and the money that you put in my books. I couldn't write you and thank you before because I was to ashamed about the way I had acted. But as they say, better late than never, eh! Anyway -- THANK YOU!!!
I also feel bad about not wanting to talk to you when you called Ben's house looking for me, but I was on a path of self-destruction that no one would have been able to talk me down from. And I felt at the time that it was better just to avoid contact with you than to have to try and lie about and defend what I was doing. I wish now that I had been able to get together with you one last time. It would have been nice to see you face to face and apologize for everything, but for now this will have to do.
Anyway, Mom told me about moving into your new apartment -- sounds really cool. She also told me about you having a new girl! Tell me about her! What's she look like, how'd you meet, what's she do for a living? The closest thing to a girl I'm going to see in the next 10 years are the guards and probably a little Cuban named Mario, ha ha ha. So I have to hear all about yours and Kevin's!
How's the job going? I heard about your trip to Switzerland and Germany. Man, that's sweet! I always wanted to go to Europe. You gotta write me back and tell me all about it. I know you really busy renovating your new place and probably don't have a lot of time to write. Unfortunately, I have little else to do! Anyway, drop me a line sometime when you get a chance. And send me some pictures of you and of Europe if you got any. Please try and forgive me for being such a jerk. I love you and Mom and Kevin more than I'll ever be able to show you!
P.S. I'm sending through Mom, because I didn't want to send an envelope marked Sherburne County Jail to PICo. Let me know if you have a different address to send to or just want to send through Mom, or even if you don't care if you co-workers see the envelope.